Cracked... How do I mend it?

ARGH!!!
Frustration fills me so much these days!!!

Why am I becoming so different?!!

Lord, Help me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fullfillment

I'm out of blog post nowadays...
I havent had anything interesting to write....
But just recently last holidays,
I felt so filled..
So satisfied..
But i have one desire...
To know my God better each day and have a personal relationship with Him.
I want to feel His love and wisdom.

I am not troubled about being alone.
For I am not,
God is everywhere,
I am not alone.
=]

Happyness.

I miss my mentor, Jared..
This is actually what Jared and i have been discussing while he's still in US.
I found God, Jared.


I've been looking,
I found Him now,
He's everywhere,
Beside me,
Beside you,
Beside everyone,
Everywhere.

=]

Crashtest succesfull,
I've met my objective.


Calvin

A New Beginning..

Li-Fe:

-noun.

-the animate existence or period of animate existence of an individual

-living things collectively

A good book

Well, reading this book is great.. As i read on, I learn more about facing my troubles in life..

How to go through a new life.. all summarized in 248 pages of this book.. A short book, on how to lead a short, yet meaningful life....

Life? in a calvin-cubical..

A one chance, never going back opportunity... No taking back, only a straight path,

A one chance to life for God, accomplish His work for us and do His will,

A one chance to love others as God has loved us on this world,

A one chance to love the people you care about alot for a lifetime,

A one chance to stand by your friends and support them through all their troubles,

A one chance to step on this Earth and spread His word,

A one chance to learn about how to grow into a great christian,

A one chance to listen, meet up, and talk to my mentor and my brothers, sisters in my life,

Mostly,

A One Chance To Be A Calvin Tan Ern Min on this Earth.

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As i think about life, i realize how short it is.. but i wanna lift this worries, hurts, and pain all to God. Only one way.. that is through God.

Hey, Jared, you're right.. i feel so open in my blog. Sometimes i cry blogging.. =D haha... i really feel like myself here... =D thanks, Jared.. I'm gonna lift it all to God, and accept.. =D

I guess its time to renew my thoughts.... Start living for God, but it isn't gonna be easy... God, help me, Lord to live for You. Thank You, Lord.

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Amen..

A new start... xD

God is my Oxygen...

Oxy-Gen:

- Something we need to live.

-Without it, we Die.

God as my Oxygen? Very true. Give you a simple senario to visualize... We need God or else, we will go down under... During these days, i realized i needed God so much more. I have so many obstcles in my way and I need Him to guide me through. I haven't been writing my journal for about a week or three...

Ok,

here's my situation..

Well, recently i have been asking myself alot... Why do ppl hate me and what is that thing to hate about me? I've been so self-concious. Well, I neeed God so much at this time... Moreover, I needed God so much I want to do it well for Him and ask Him what He wanted to do for the VBS...

So, God told me to just be myself and love myself for who I am.. If people/your friends don't accept you for who you are, you'd better think whether they really are your friends..

A real friend is someone who can stand beside you and help you over come your troubles, Help you in time of need. And that person is God. Don't just want a friend like that, but need a friend like that, cause if you want.. it'll last only for a while.

=]

A post ain't a post without a picture.

Just an Add up..

=]

A Fresh New Start...

12/11/08



This year is gonna be tough for me.... VBS sing and play?! ARgh!!! Tense.... I have so many things to do!

What to do? But just to depend on God and ask Him for help..



I know.. a very text book answer, but its the best thing I can do.. God will guide me through.. He put so many people in my church to help. And, I gotta make this work for His glory to be shown to the small kids...



VBS is in 10 days!! Pray for us, Wesley Penang and the whole VBS group to be able to usher in the presence of the Lord and show the kids God's power and glory...

The VBS comittee.. =P